5 years later

It never gets easier like people say. A death of a loved one will always be there, lingering at the back of your mind and from time to time you shed a tear but you'll learn to cope.

In 5 years a lot has happened, i'm 22 soon and for the 5th year you wont be here to celebrate it with me. You would have been in your 80s now, old lady. The boys miss you so much especially Billy, he still sleeps with that teddy of yours although he wouldn't admit that if I asked him. Billy's doing his GCSEs now, Nan. He's 15 years old and he's so intelligent you'd be so proud of him. As for Ryan he's in his second year of secondary school and he might be a little crap at times but he's such a loving kid and so, so funny. I wish Ryan had more time to spend with you and got to know you like Billy and I did but we'll always talk about you and tell him how amazing you were. Mum misses you more than anyone though, she struggled a lot but she got through it, got back into estate agency I hope you're ecstatic for her because I was. I know you're watching over her.

One day i'll come live with you I assume that's not for many, many decades yet though. Till then you'll still be alive in my memories.

I love you forever Nan <3