My 2018

I am actually writing this on the eve of New Year, well done me.

So where do I really start and end on this year?

I started off this year living at my Mums. I was fairly content with life even though I still utterly despised my job by this point, I was getting through it. Even if I was going bald due to stress.

February of this year completely changed my life in more ways than one. I was offered a job I believed I???d love so I jumped at the chance and didn???t really think anything through. The employers of the company ended up messing me around and so I left the following month however I ended up in a job I absolutely love. To most bar work isn???t much but it???s what brought me out of my shell and I have a great passion for it, I love my co-workers and my locals are amazing. February also took me on the biggest rollercoaster I???ve ever been on as it???s the month I conceived. I found out when I was roughly 2-3 weeks pregnant after going to a doctors appointment and pregnancy was the last thing on my mind. I remember going through every single emotion when I found out and very nearly went down a whole other route but I???m so glad I decided to keep my bean.

At 27 weeks pregnant I had to leave my work place due to having Synthesis Pubic Dysfunction, all I could be given for the pain was codeine but I got through it and on November 3rd I gave birth to my daughter, Amelie Wendy Iris whom was a whopping 8 pounds and 3 ounces. I think she sums my year up because though it wasn???t what I expected it???s what I needed, I now have the most beautiful gift to spend the rest of my life with and her face fills me with so much joy every single day.

My relationship may not be perfect but perfect is never what I wanted. Yes we bicker over ridiculous things but we are also each other???s best friend. There???s no other person in the world who knows me like my partner and no one is rather gossip with and spend every last second beside. My Mum didn???t teach me much but one thing that???s always stuck in my mind is ???Find the person who can annoy you the most but then make you smile??? and that???s my Squishy.

Though my depression is still very much present in my life due to my pregnancy a lot more help has been offered to me and I start counselling in 2019 and I???ve a very positive view on it.

Anyway here???s to 2019. May it be wonderful.