From one Muchroom to Another...
17 years & 28 days ago
23rd Oct 2007 15:44 This could be the headache talking, but I've been wondering if my world view is healthy. I honestly don't believe that mankind has any hope of survival. I know it's deems like we're doing wonderfully, but how close are we to nuclear armageddon? And what about the fact that living in my home , LA, could be killing me slowly? I might as well smoke. I'm WOW I LOVE Marapetsing dying anyway. And natural disasters are getting more and more lethal, it seems. It feels like the world is trying to shake us off, doesn't it? Mother nature is exterminating this fungus called humanity she's been growing for the past kajillion years .
Is this unhealthy, thinking like this? Or is it a clearer vision? Maybe I'm just pessimistic about our pathetic species. I mean we're so wonderfully built. Amazingly built. And we use it against each other. It's this whole crazy thing. Paradox? I don't know. Our intelligence is a curse and a blessing.
Sometimes I think maybe we're not the most intelligent creatures on the planet. Maybe we're the dumbest. You don't see bears blowing each other up. Or penguins shanking each other.
Sometimes I want to freakin run away and forget humans.
That's where I belong. Outside.
I know humanity is doomed to an approaching extinction. I just hope we don't kill everything else when we go out. It's the nature of Earth, extinction. Whatever happens, happens. I'm not afraid,. are you?
Distractions
17 years & 28 days ago
23rd Oct 2007 15:42 I was greatly suprised today to realise, finally, that when I have something bugging me, there's no way I can push myself very hard.
This is extremely frustrating for me especially because I'm one of those people who waits for their mind to make itsself up. Even if I try to force a decision, I'll obsess over it for days until my mind makes itsself up anyway. It just seems like a waste of energy entirely.
This came into play today. I had tracked down the Girl's Volleyball coach this morning to schedule an interview. He told me to find him during 6th. Thinking Coach Yerka would cut me some slack for one day to get this out of the way, I agreed.
Sixith period rolls around, and Yerka won't budge. I'm running today. I ask Sandy to apologize for me and leave to get a head start.
I get to Hayvenhurst and my phone rings. It's Sandy and she tells me I can interview him Monday 6th period. Again. So the entire way to and from the intersection of Balboa and San Fernando Mission, I'm obsessing over what I can do. Do I ditch the team for the interview or do I head over to Coach Ty and beg for a different time? I can't ditch the team, that's just lame! But I have to get this article in on time! But I don't want to have my first interview dripping with sweat and smelling like the LA river, do I? Over and over and over.
Needless to say, I couldn't focus at all. Focus - a very fragile and rare thing for me...
I thought the distraction would keep me running. Nope. Life just seems to keep doing that to me. Oh well...No fear Work hard Don't stop.
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