Distractions

I was greatly suprised today to realise, finally, that when I have something bugging me, there's no way I can push myself very hard.
This is extremely frustrating for me especially because I'm one of those people who waits for their mind to make itsself up. Even if I try to force a decision, I'll obsess over it for days until my mind makes itsself up anyway. It just seems like a waste of energy entirely.

This came into play today. I had tracked down the Girl's Volleyball coach this morning to schedule an interview. He told me to find him during 6th. Thinking Coach Yerka would cut me some slack for one day to get this out of the way, I agreed.

Sixith period rolls around, and Yerka won't budge. I'm running today. I ask Sandy to apologize for me and leave to get a head start.

I get to Hayvenhurst and my phone rings. It's Sandy and she tells me I can interview him Monday 6th period. Again. So the entire way to and from the intersection of Balboa and San Fernando Mission, I'm obsessing over what I can do. Do I ditch the team for the interview or do I head over to Coach Ty and beg for a different time? I can't ditch the team, that's just lame! But I have to get this article in on time! But I don't want to have my first interview dripping with sweat and smelling like the LA river, do I? Over and over and over.

Needless to say, I couldn't focus at all. Focus - a very fragile and rare thing for me...

I thought the distraction would keep me running. Nope. Life just seems to keep doing that to me. Oh well...No fear Work hard Don't stop.