its kool but no every1 i am not emo but i ??? it

People dying,
Little girls crying,
I'm wondering why,
why I can't cry,
Windows Smashing,
Cars Crashing,
I just want to die,
A car door shuts,
I'm about to go nuts,
Dad's home,
I wish I were all alone,
Turn off the lights and hide under my bed,
Sometimes I wish I were dead,
Dad locks the door,
He knows I'm sprawled out on the floor,
I call 911,
And he pulls out a gun,
Now I am in heaven,
At the age of eleven