I don't think I'll ever get over it

**TW: sad stuff, pity party, loss**

Even two months later my mom and I are still receiving sympathy cards. Today was one from many of my dad's past coworkers and work-related friends. My beliefs that he was a kind soul and hard worker were confirmed. At first I was smiling thinking how blessed I was to have a dad so many people felt connected to.
Then I came across a small note on the card with the simple statement-
"He was so proud of you both."
And I absolutely lost it.
I'm so damn angry and frustrated that other girls will get to have their dad walk them down the aisle or hold their babies. It makes me so mad. He was ripped away from us. It makes me so sad. His future was stolen. He didn't deserve that. and I don't think I'm ever going to get over any of this.