Why I'm always mad ~

I never know how to start things
Because I rarely finish them
But for you I???d do anything
So this is for you Chris

I???ve had vivid dreams like this
Where I???m mourning the loss of someone I love
But I said it would never happen
Because I would catch your demons
Before they caught up with you

But now I???m really standing here
In this exact place
Full of regret, sorrow and fear
Because I for the last time I said
I love you

All I remember is you telling me
That this wasn???t my fault
And that you cared
That I shouldn???t be upset anymore

But that???s when I lost it
And that???s when I lost you

For the past year I didn???t know who Chris was
And thankfully you???ve finally come home
And I missed you

I wish that when you were here
I could have found the right words
To help you, to guide you
To do anything to stop you
But I didn???t
And that will forever haunt me

You will always live on in my memory
As my champagne supernova

And may you always remember
I love you like a sister
I miss you like a friend
And I will never forget you, until the very end