my poems & other writtings

once:
the bridges to the waters
i onced loved, seems to be lost
the call of the past
makes me question myself..today
so i walk alone wondering about the things i once wanted..but now all is lost..in the wind of life
feeling lost;my wants are gone...the tears shed are now not worth it
i finally see...what i needed to all along....i wanted to be something i was not made to be...
i was caught up in being something someday that i lost myself...in the wind of life.....
and now i am found.

next:LONGED
i've longed to feel my heart beat
i hear it, but it is empty
i feel numb, numb inside and out
my feelings are lost
and have not been found
i feel often..trapped in a dream
where i dont belong
this dream replays
over and over again
i find that my friends
that i once loved are gone
i find myself alone and lost
walking the dark streets of life
while my lost friends watch on the other side of the glass.

you're:...........
you're my light
you're my shooting star
you're the reason for me..
in this world
i wish you could see what yoo mean to me
what you are to me
i wish you could see
how bright..and loving you are
yet you dont...
you dont see how much you mean to me...what you are in my world
dont be blinded by your light...
because your my shooting star.., your my everything...please just see...

I found you
I found life again
You gave me something to live for in this world...
We found out that this world..
can turn cold
And people change
You found better things out there for you
And I was left here alone once again
All the things i found are now lost
just like me
But people change
And maybe one day i'll find everything that i lost....

sorry:
I'm sorry
I'm sorry that everything we were fell down to the ground
I'm sorry that you hated the life that you had
I'm sorry I couldnt be everything you dreamed me to be
I'm sorry that I wasn't that girl for you
I'm sorry that everything changed for you...
But I'm not sorry that I change for the better....
I wish that you could see me now
And let you feel sorry that you left....
Because to me
I was that girl...and everything you dreamed for me to be...
I loved the life we had...
Its your turn to be sorry..it was your mistake...not mine....

NO WORDS:
I used to think you
could live through anything
that you would still be here with me today....and hurts to think you wont.....I know you're looking down at me
from a wonderful place
yet I want you here with me
you were such a strong part of me
and now that your gone that part died too....
I dont feel the same without you..
I still have no words to explain why my pain is much.....
All I know is that even though your gone..you loved me....more then I'll ever know

GOOD BYE:
I know this is good bye
And I know you loved me once too
But our paths changed...and we found better things out there in this world....so this good bye
I'll never forget you and the times we shared together
And always love you....
So good bye to you and everything I knew....its time my path in life goes the ways I want it to...

TELL ME WHAT?
I've cried over you And I
Dont know why anymore...maybe you can tell me why everything we are is all wrong now
Because I dont know anymore...
I've tried all I could ever do
To make this work....yet
You dont know or care these days
I think of ways to bring us back
again...but all I see is how I felt when I first saw you and
how I wanted you forever...but now I dont even want to be next to you
Tell me
what went wrong
What did I do for you to go
and break our world

When you said goodbye to me
Everything went dark....
Everything became all wrong
The pain was burried deep in my chest,....making it hard to breath
I tried to move on in life...
But you kept sneeking back in my thoughts......making that action harder to do......
The thought of you brought back the deep pain in my heart..breaking me inside
......Then after all my tears and pain you came back......

*NEW* wonder~
It kills me to see you leave after all this time
what do i do now?
everything has fallen and i'm on the floor
only able to think of you
only able to talk about you
only you are left in my mind
for everything else is gone;forgotten about
My best friend is gone
the only one who really
understood me.
now i visit you and cry
and talk; but you cant talk to
me...how unfair life seems
but i take a deep breath
and i know you would feel the same if i had left this world too without you