misery

sometimes pays off.

I don't think I've ever felt more tired and broken or empty, both mentally and physically.

But finally I can say that all the hard work I put into burning my eye sockets out just reading lecture slide after slide and staying up for nights just going at it none stop in the 90 degree weather, SO FAR AWAY FROM HOME HAS PAID OFF.

I can't stop crying haha. I saw my score for today's exam and I aced it. Literally 8 weeks of torture I'm just.. I don't know. I was beyond terrified to see if I messed up. Honestly, this place has pushed me to the limits in terms of "you work super hard and still end up with crappy results". It's the worst feeling in the world.

Emotions suck and people suck. But I'm just happy that the road here is almost over and I can go back home surrounded by my loved ones. The only people who matter~


Well, anyway.. can't wait for Friday to be over. One more exam, my final exam, and then I can breathe again.